I don’t actually know. I was hoping that you might be able to help me out. I dislike anything that seems overly “forced”, inauthentic or inorganic. That becomes a bit of a problem because some aspects of conscious living are somewhat “forced”. By forced, I mean something like a setup-punchline structure of a joke, it can just seem forced and formulaic. For example, forcing myself to ask for people’s names just because some book says its a good idea seems forced, too, and inauthentic because I don’t really care (I do care, but imagine if I did not).
I have an inkling it has something to do with my desire to be original and unique, however I don’t really know. I’d really appreciate any help and comments.