Sep 162007

I’m going through a period of self-exploration right now. Those of you who actually read this blog and have talked to me recently might know that I’m working at a job pushing furniture around. The money’s pretty good, but I really dislike the job. I’m frustrated because I feel stuck for some reason.

I’ve just realized I took the easy route out. Instead of seeking the harder path of purpose and courage, I chose the easy one of trading time for money.

Another thing I’m realizing is that I have a belief that money = personal sacrifice. I have trouble taking money for something I feel comes easily to me (computers nad a/v equip and just technical stuff) even though society values those a lot higher than labour. This belief is partially what got me into this job and I dislike that. I want to let go of this belief and replace it with something more constructive, although I dunno what that is yet. I had been thinking I might replace it with the idea that its what value society places on my output, but I’m starting to rethink that. There may be the question of intrinsic worth or something that might come up. Dunno yet. I trust it will all work out for the best.

I’ve also been reading 4-Hour Workweek. I really enjoy this book. More info (and a half hour lecture recording) here. Still need to find the courage and to change my beliefs to allow myslef to do this.

  One Response to “I took the easy route”

  1. I have a hard time taking money for my ‘real’ work as well. One thing I have found that helps is applying my real work to my fake work. That way my real work isn’t an escape from the way life is; it is an instrument of transformation.

    Another thing that I find helpful is looking at my real work as "just another job" and not a fantasy career or some means to save humanity. I’m not that important or great. Ironically, my work turns out better that way.

    Just some thoughts…

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